Apparently my gf since she left me hanging last night blaming herself for the little valentines day mishap we had, is keeping to herself.
She needs her space and according to her best friend, also my friend, she just hasnt said anything cuz she doesn't want me to worry.
Now, before I get any further let me just point out that anything that follows is just frustration and ranting thats been backed up. I'm just so tense right now I need somewhere to vent it all...
she needs to tell me when she needs space and not just shut me out. she can just say it and ill understand instead of leaving me all in the dark, confused and mixed up inside!
if she cant tell me things and just shuts me out totally, unresponsive for periods at a time its just gonna make things worse and hurt me, make me feel abandoned, make me feel like i cant be trusted, she needs to let me know and like i said id understand and give her her space. otherwise its just like tossing me into a pit of despair and confusion leaving me to pick back up whenever she feels like it
i wish she could just understand but when things get tough she just wont even let me help or even tell me when she needs space. i feel like the ****tiest boyfriend in the world not being good for anything or able to do anything. i feel lower then trash
not telling me so i dont worry about her? locking me out doesnt stop me from worrying. how could it for anyone. it just makes me feel like garbage unable to do anything... helpless, alone, cold, in the dark... worthless...
sorry about that... i just needed to get it out...