|What was it like to see
The face of your own stability
Suddenly look away
Leaving you with the dead and hopeless?
Eleven and she was gone.
Eleven is when we waved good-bye.
Eleven is standing still,
Waiting for me to free him
By coming home.
Moving me with a sound.
Opening me within a gesture.
Drawing me down and in,
Showing me where it all began,
It took so long to realize that
You hold the light that's been leading me back home.
Under a dead ohio sky,
Eleven has been and will be waiting,
Defending his light,
Where the hell have I been?
Sleeping, lost, and numb.
So glad that I have found you.
I am wide awake and heading home.
Hold your light,
Lead me through each gentle step by step
by inch by loaded memory.
I'll move to heal
As soon as pain allows so we can
Reunite and both move on together.
Hold your light,
Eleven. Lead me through each gentle step by step
By inch by loaded memory
'till one and one are one, eleven,
So glow, child, glow.
I'm heading back home.
Clearly, there must be some sort of meaning, but as with any Tool song, there is never one single way to view it. They have claimed to do this intentionally.
This time as I was reading through, in light of recent events, it had occured to me that it could possibly be about two people instead of my previously assumed three.
Then a new thought hit me, and I started to wonder.. Could it be that the "him" the narrorator referrs to is none other than himself?
Ironic that I would be mentioning this line in an analysis of sorts, but in another Tool lyric they mention one of my favorite quotes. "Over thinking, over analyzing seperates the body from the mind".
...But I did a bit more reflecting on the past. A few of my most painful moments were caused by unrestrained over thinking.. Which led to a pretty hefty dose of anxiety if you can't imagine.. My continuation of "The Elephant" will highlight that struggle..
I'm so thankful that in recent days I've started to find myself again.. I found myself, and created my own stability.. And now I wonder if the "me" I knew was truly me to begin with. As they say, chaos brings order. Certainly not in the way I expected though.. I would have never wished the frustration upon myself, but the rewards of learning from my experiences have been irreplacable.
"Where the hell have I been?... Sleeping, lost and numb.
So glad that I have found you. I am wide awake and heading home."
All comments welcome.