|“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”
- charles swindoll
i like to think that i'm a rather logical person...but on the other hand, i am also an emotional and sensitive person. this makes matters of the heart really really hard for me. i also think this is why i'm "torn in two" about a lot of things. sometimes it's really easy to seperate my heart from my head...but other times not so much.
there are other times when it's hard for me. like when someone upsets me, i tend to react instantly with rage...when i probably shouldn't...even though it's understandable why i would. i like to be the bigger person in situations...and although sometimes lowering myself makes me feel better...the feeling only lasts for about 15 min...then i start to hate myself for the way i acted. honestly, i think i'm a good person, i'm easy to get along with, i'm nice and caring...etc. but once someone crosses the line and tries to start something with me, i tend to react irrationally...mostly because i don't know why i deserve it and it makes me frustrated and causes me not to think properly.
only thing i can ever think of that would make someone angry with me would be that i have a problem telling it like it is. being honest and rather blunt. although i honestly don't view this as a problem, other people do. the truth seems to hurt. but the funny thing is that i can figure out these "truths" simply by just observing people. that's what i do, i observe. that's how i learn about people. i watch and see how they react to certain situations and in turn, it causes me to learn. the other funny thing is that i can also do this over the internet.
honestly, i don't even remember what my point was in writing this...other than sharing the quote. the rest is just a mix of thoughts going through my head