http://www.overclock.net/blogs/mhsbrian/ An overclocking forum devoted to maximizing the performance of graphics cards, CPUs, motherboards, RAM and everything else found inside your computer case. en Mon, 23 Nov 2009 08:54:52 GMT vBulletin 1 http://static.overclock.net/images/oc/misc/rss.jpg http://www.overclock.net/blogs/mhsbrian/ http://www.overclock.net/blogs/mhsbrian/592-first-times-they-kinda-scare-me.html Fri, 18 Jul 2008 15:31:42 GMT So I'm 20 years old and I realize now that If I don't go to college I never will. I keep thinking when I'm laying in my bed at night am I making the right decision for myself or am I putting my partners future ahead of mine. Gah, I'm 20 years old renting a home, paying a car payment and in a week and a half I'm going a vacation in Florida with Cameron. I feel like I've already established some kind of adulthood and I still feel like a kid. Maybe this is normal for people that have lots of responsibilities ? Who am I to question these thinngs I guess.

I can remember my first day of my first job, I just knew I was gonna screw up atleast 5 things before I started, I did well; I actually enjoyed putting back into society and meeting people and I never thought I would. Now that I work full time doing what I really do enjoy, I just wonder where my life is gonna lead me, what choices I am making are gonna improve for my future.

I'm 20 and I have more responsibility than my 33 year old crackhead brother that can't mount to anything. I'm 20, out of the closet, working full time, paying all my bills, renting a home , and I feel like I haven't even scraped the top of what I'm capable of and it seems I'm so much more capable than I realize, maybe I just don't give myself enough credit. Alas, The first times, sigh; they kinda scare me. ]]> mhsbrian http://www.overclock.net/blogs/mhsbrian/592-first-times-they-kinda-scare-me.html