one of those days...
Posted 09-02-08 at 01:44 AM by XFreeRollerX
as much as I can try, this never works out the way I like it anymore... this last time seemed like a total joke.. no, really, a joke played on me for humor of some sort... a person whom many years ago I called a friend (I first thought this was a joke because this person who intro'd me is rather evil, and finds humor in rather retarded things) introduced me to this girl I knew back from highschool, I always thought she was really cute and wanted to get to know her but that never really happened. Well what I think is 4 years later, some dumb strike of luck, I get her number and we hang out a few times and all of a sudden its like I have a massive crush on her and my head is spinnin all over again...great, just what I need I think to myself, more to worry about! but for some reason I persue this as if I can get something out of it... like, oh god forbid, a good relationship with a great woman? ha, yeah, theres the optimisim shooting myself in the foot. well now 2 weeks has gone by and now I have no idea why I tried so hard. the only thing I found was her in the arms of another person.
since leaving for tucson last year, life seriously went down the ****hole for me.. the dorm room was depressing as hell as almost every night I either went out at night to get stoned off my ass, drunk, or stayed behind my computer playing video games till it was time for class the next ****ing day... god that made my life so depressing, I am honestly not surprized one bit that I failed my chemistry class... I had no interest in doing anything, if anything, I had thought about jumping out the window a few times because life was so bad.. tryin to get rid of those days makes me a happier person but damn did being away from my friend really suck, being back here, alot of them have been disconnected as we haven't talked all as much as I like...
hopefully tomorrow I wake up in a better mood, leaving behind the thoughts of this weekend as they have no use to me but to make sure they don't come again.
Hopefully some day I will find what I am looking for...
since leaving for tucson last year, life seriously went down the ****hole for me.. the dorm room was depressing as hell as almost every night I either went out at night to get stoned off my ass, drunk, or stayed behind my computer playing video games till it was time for class the next ****ing day... god that made my life so depressing, I am honestly not surprized one bit that I failed my chemistry class... I had no interest in doing anything, if anything, I had thought about jumping out the window a few times because life was so bad.. tryin to get rid of those days makes me a happier person but damn did being away from my friend really suck, being back here, alot of them have been disconnected as we haven't talked all as much as I like...
hopefully tomorrow I wake up in a better mood, leaving behind the thoughts of this weekend as they have no use to me but to make sure they don't come again.
Hopefully some day I will find what I am looking for...
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Maybe what you are looking for is right in front of you already and you just can't see it
Don't lose yourself in your past.Posted 09-02-08 at 10:27 PM by mega_option101
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depression sucks hope you have a great day tomorrowPosted 09-02-08 at 11:34 PM by jarble
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Maybe it's time to stop chasing girls and focus on a larger goal in life, for now.
I give this advice from one brother to another.Posted 09-06-08 at 06:58 AM by legoman786
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Every day's a new day; a new opportunity. Think positively and make the best of it!
Posted 09-09-08 at 04:25 AM by Choggs396
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I am an optimistic person, I wake up every day hoping to make it the best day of my life.
Of course I have my days, I don't bite myself in the ass when they come by... I just get through it and learn to avoid the issue again
Although women seem to be a consistent problem for me
stupid girl at work is now trying to flirt with me 
GAHHHPosted 09-11-08 at 12:09 AM by XFreeRollerX
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Been there too often. I really regret the habits I picked up in high school: neglecting course work, poor sleep habits, drug use turned to drug abuse. And I wondered why I wasn't happy with life.Quote:almost every night I either went out at night to get stoned off my ass, drunk, or stayed behind my computer playing video games till it was time for class the next ****ing day...
Gone were the days of innocent curiosity and exploration, and learning. Anti-life.
I digress, keep your optimism. We all do have our days, and sometimes a few more than we'd like to face, but try to make the best of it mate. The beautiful in our world will always outweigh the ugly, but only if we choose to see it.
And as far as women go, good freakin luck! I swear they're as illusive as unicorns.Posted 09-13-08 at 09:25 PM by ILOVEPOTtery
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I feel for you bro. Depression really sucks. Keep up that optimism.
~3XPerimentPosted 09-24-08 at 06:18 PM by 3XPeriment
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It's all right man. I'm somewhat in your shoes right now being in the Marine Corps. I have a great life right now, nothing to worry about('till I get shipped out
), and a guaranteed check. What else is there to worry about?
The whole being away from everyone you know and love...
Keep your optimism. I try to tell myself that everyday but idk. Maybe you can do better.Posted 09-25-08 at 11:05 AM by TwIsTeDbOi
