http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/ An overclocking forum devoted to maximizing the performance of graphics cards, CPUs, motherboards, RAM and everything else found inside your computer case. en Mon, 23 Nov 2009 19:29:06 GMT vBulletin 1 http://static.overclock.net/images/oc/misc/rss.jpg http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/ http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/1445-fighting-till-success-brings-death.html Sun, 18 Oct 2009 07:02:34 GMT So since I ever laid eyes on the hideous vehicle my dad so graciously gave me for free (read: I really am thankful for a brand new car that never has reliability issues), I have yearned for a car that excited me. My dad just does not understand what it is like to be an adrenaline junkie. For... So since I ever laid eyes on the hideous vehicle my dad so graciously gave me for free (read: I really am thankful for a brand new car that never has reliability issues), I have yearned for a car that excited me.

My dad just does not understand what it is like to be an adrenaline junkie. For me, driving is what sets me high. Sure I can do drugs, but there is something about the art of high performance driving that just puts me in a different world. Nobody I know understands it. NOBODY. I cry inside everytime I try to talk to someone about it because they all call me a crazy driver. I drove with one guy I didn't know, he asked me to take him home in a hurry and he, to my surprise, thanked me and commented on how amazing of a driver I was :p

Anyhow back to the original idea, I have long wanted a car that suits my driving style... My dad bought me a Nissan Versa. Front wheel drive, open differential, disgusting ratios, 5 inch wide econo tires.

I recently brought up the fact that I am interested in buying a new car. He asked what car, I said Hyundai Genesis Coupe. He looks at me and to my surprise again, he starts going on tangent about "you know this car is supposed to compete with Mercades and BMW". I said "So? Thats a good thing RIGHT? The car starts at 20 grand".... You know what he says... "No it doesn't. It can't".
I stop him right there and give him an earful, every time he tries to interrupt me, I don't let him because I'm just on this ridiculous roll cus I've been dying for a car that really suits me. The Genesis Coupe I've recently seen really fits what I want: Affordable rear wheel drive performance.

So finally after I get it out, he seems convinced, says 'ok we can talk more later'... parting good byes are exchanged and I leave.

Few days later, I'm over for dinner again and I bring it up again about me wanting the car and I asked on why he was so against it.

He goes on some crazy rant about how I can't afford the car. I said 'wait a second, if I put a decent down payment and finance a bit, it will only cost me $300-400 a month plus basic insurance will only run me $200 per year, gas is nothing, I can afford an extra few hundred a month if I went full-time at my job..'

He says.... '$300? HAH, try $1000 a month for that car. Your car payment is going to be 600-700 and you NEED full coverage insurance which is going to cost you at least 300 bucks a month. You really want to pay $1000 a month for basic transportation?'

Okay well the biggest problem I have here is I'm not buying a god damn sports car for basic transportation. Second problem: I'm not gonna finance the entire 30 grand over a 36 month loan LOL, thats just retarded. I plan on putting at least 8k down, and I told him that, and he still pulls this number out of his ass? JESUS TAPDANCING CHRIST.

For anyone that has known or followed the legacy of how ignorant my father is, this is just another trend he is following with not making sense.

Regardless.... He obviously doesn't care to look at the logical side of this, and he assumed I'm going to be buying the most expensive trim and paying MSRP lol. Thoughtful, huh?

Anyhow, enough negative ranting man, I don't like making a sob story out of my blog posts

approximately 2.5 weeks ago I was approached by this beautiful girl, young, maybe 2 years younger than I (18)... and as soon as I saw her crying face, I lost. Like Instantly LOST. Naturally, I went up and asked what was wrong etc etc as I had just got off work and was headed home... she didn't have enough money for gas to get home and her parents won't help her. So I helped push her car to the gas station on the end of the parking lot and I filled her tank up for her (GAS).. She thanked me, hug, yada etc..
[tangent] The whole reason why I instantly lost to this face (ladies if you ever want a piece of me, read this) was this girl's eyes. There's this really specific look I just melt for, its kinda hard to describe... where the girl has thicker lower eyelids and big dark eyes... dear god I can't help but stare and want to never let go of that face.. I (believe it or not) LOVE it when said women has no makeup on. I think makeup ruins a beautiful face. This girl was basically something I would see in my dream...[/tangent]... I talked with her for a bit and apparently shes from opposite side of town, like 40 minute drive man. I figured I would never see her again and wished her luck in the future.

2 days ago (from posting this) I saw the same girl again. I shat my pants upon noticing her walking my direction... My thoughts 'was I lied to? Does she want more $? Is she lost?'
She approached me and in an ever so soft and cute voice asked me for money so she can get gas for her car so she can make it home tonight. I LOL'd so hard and asked her if she recognized me... Course she said NO. I lol'd a bit more and she asked why I laughed. I pointed out about 2 weeks ago I had given her an entire tank of gas and she flipped her lid all embarrassed. I felt deep regret for helping this poor lil begger.

So after talking with her I got a nice tale as to why she was begging for money. I said bye and sent her on her way, no gifts this time. I started asking around at work if my co-workers had spoken to this girl... apparently she has been asking EVERY ONE for cash LOL!!! Damn do I feel dumb. I got the store manager to get the cops to pull her ass out.


Recently I've been struggling with College.. I've come to a realization that I'm going nowhere at all. My classes are boring, I'm not doing as good as I should, I'm not interested in passing, I'm not interested in progressing, I don't care about school anymore. The benefits are not visible to me. I've made my decision already, I'm just going to drop out of college/university. It just isn't for me. I just don't care about it right now. Its not my priority and I can't make it one, my mind just isn't willing. I know down the road I might regret it or wish I did not, but right now, I've wasted 3 semesters, spent 5 semesters on classes, and have no tangible feeling of success or progression or where its taking me. I'm going to stop wasting my money on it. I can support myself on $11 per hour for now.. till I need more, Ill just sit on it.


Lately I feel like life is on cruise control.. I just take things real easy.. Enjoy life as it comes :) Overall mood lately has been fantastic :D ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/1445-fighting-till-success-brings-death.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/1375-educational-scam.html Thu, 03 Sep 2009 06:07:41 GMT I wish I could win the lottery so I could just say screw school, I don't need a $60,00 piece of paper to determine what I do in life. Its causing more stress that by the time I graduate Ill be just like my dad.. pissed off all the damn time. Probably cus he wasted so much time on his awesome doctors degree that he regrets it all the damn time.

Really I have come to narrow down why my dad is such a narcissistic prick all the time now. Hes got a doctors degree in Professional Engineering and he makes great money... Upwards of 200k per year. Fantastic pay, you figure he would come home at the end of the day happy every day, right? I mean all he does is stay in an office all day and plan stuff and work on computers designing stuff... Great man. I work in an office too - I love the job! Why the hell is he always tired and in a bad mood? He just barely turned 50 years... still has mostly colored hair (not grey)....

Really though this is kind of a rant about school and how pissed off at the pointlessness of it. Im spending upwards of fifteen thousand dollars a year for classes that teach me.. teach me what? How to write a rhetorical analysis, complicated equations with linear algebra, calculus, and the history of ancient egypt. What the F*_$ does this have to do with a Technology management degree?

Computer Information systems, chemistry with advanced thermodynamics lessons and things that relate to computer hardware engineering (back when thats what I was interested in) yeah that makes sense.... but learning about writing an advanced analysis about some rhetoric.. WHO GIVES A FLYING DAMN about some crackhead writing these memes or what teachers like to call 'plots' in some story... why can't we just talk in straight forward terms like "Holy hell I lost my mind look at that tree, its leaves are falling off"....

Damn.

On the bright side of today, I got 14 hours of work in, gonna get lots of overtime :p and I think my manager has a thing for me... she gets really close to me when she says 'thank you so much Sam'... dear god I regretted wearing nylon shorts real fast... Last time I had that happen to me (not too long ago) I ended up going to this girls house to 'fix her computer as a favor' then next thing I know I'm nailin her on her roommates bed lol (roommate was in jail for 30 days LOL)

bleh, weird post indeed... Im just pissed at all this homework I have, on top of the hours I spend in class :mad: POS classes are worthless I say! WORTHLESS! ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/1375-educational-scam.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/1237-when-rains.html Fri, 10 Jul 2009 21:06:20 GMT It pours

For the past couple of moths I've moved out of my rents house and into an apartment with a friend/former room mate from dorms. Things have been going well for the first half of the period... then something seemingly fell out of the window or something cus every reason I left the parents house is now a problem at my apartment?!?!
Two major issues I've come to find myself in again...
I hate it when it is hot, any more than like 78*F or so and I start sweating, fast... the roommate seems to not be bothered at all by the heat and doesn't seem to enjoy the electric bill. Understandable. What is pissing me off is he will randomly turn the AC to 50*F and the place will FREEZE over. Thats fine, I like it cold. The next day he completely turns off the AC?!?!?!?! WHAT THE ****?!?!?! Its Arizona - its 110*F outside from 6am to 9pm all day every day, night time stays above 80 depending on weather and how many months its been since we had rain.... I cannot for the life of me understand why someone would run the temperature down as far as it can possibly go, then just shut it off. This is the fastest way to work up a nice bill because 1-The rooms will never reach the set temperature (AC never turns off), and 2- constantly changing the temperature (I would assume) is very inefficient for keeping a place cool. For sanity's sake, leave it at a single comfortable temperature.

Mess. I hate mess, dirty, etc... Im somewhat of a clean freak. I hate it when the place I live in looks like a dump. When I went to visit the apartment before moving in, it was spotless. Since then, I have seen the roommate clean 1 time. One time. The place slowly degraded to what I fathom. I've cleaned up the place a couple times now to were it looked good and literally within a couple days, its dirty again. I don't know how to deal with this, I really don't. The roommate dos not seem to even care about keeping things clean. For god sakes, he shaved his head in the bathroom, what seemed like WALKING IN CIRCLES. THERE WAS HAIR EVERYWHERE. The sink, floor, under the carpet, in the tub.... was he freakin dancing while cutting his hair or something!?!? Once I saw that I gave up. He doesn't care about keeping clean, I'm not cleaning after him. Im not gonna play moma and clean up after this pig. Ill live with it until I find a new place - hopefully soon. It also doesn't help that his sister is living with us too. She sheds hair pretty bad and leaves it in the tub, sink, toilets, etc, too. I have also given up on cleaning due to the appearance of neither of them caring about keeping the place clean.

I'm gonna start looking for my own apartment, single person. I don't care to have another roommate after this. I am thoroughly pissed off today as I woke up sweating again.

Going on tangent to something else - this isn't so much a rant as it is kind of reflecting on some events yesterday. This girl I dated in freshman year of high school recently got back in contact with me...
*quick history briefing* We dated for a year and 2 months, we had a great relationship. I broke up with her 2 times because of her sister. Not in a good way. her sister was always lieing her saying I would be cheating on her, messing around with others, etc, trying to get us to split up. My gf believed it for some reason and always ended up in argument until I convinced her otherwise. I never cheated on her. I really liked this girl so I did treat her well. she would call me an ******* once in a while but whatever - she seemed like she was kidding. Eventually it got to a point where I couldn't take her sisters harassment and I had to say goodbye to the girl - was too much.*
Course the breakup was a huge mess. she insisted that I was still an ass, I promised her that I would always and forever be the best guy she has ever dated. she recently came back after 4? years... whining about the last 4-5 guys she dated. Turns out what I said to her was 100% correct. Guy1 cheated on her for 4 months, she got pregnant - he ditched her - parents got restraining order, she then miscarried. Guy 2 - cheated on her for the entire time they dated. Guy 3 - cheated on her the entire time they dated, got her pregnant. 4 months pregnant the guy threatans her saying he wants nothing to do with her "or else". Restraining order placed, she moved out of town for 5 months. She moved back into town and recently contacted me then....

Sad story, Im mad at the girl for actually letting me be right. Im dissapointed that I let such a nice, good girl go to be treated like that but.. hey, stupid people exist - guess shes no exception! ugh.


/sadistic

School is starting back up soon :) looking forward to an exciting year of 3rd year at University...

Party time :devil-smi ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/1237-when-rains.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/735-unsightly-turn-events.html Thu, 20 Nov 2008 05:47:28 GMT Since transferring schools things have changed a bit.. I have a job taking up the rest of my time that I'm not in school and game a bit late nite and weekends after homework is done.. I'm enjoying a quiet life at home for now.. hopefully Ill get more free time next semester.

Lately things have been good :) getting a job and keeping myself busy seems to have organized myself a bit, I value time a bit better now but run low on sleep often which doesn't make me too happy but things are steady as she goes :D

Looking forward to a very rest-ful vacation soon.. Hoping I do well enough in my classes to make it to next semester again :headscrat Whatever, if I drop out, I can survive paycheck to paycheck for a couple years, get certified in something, and go have fun with it from there... Honestly I am rather tired of school and doubt I will last 4 years (I will try but if I make it, I will be shocked myself).

Here is to hoping for the best:drink: ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/735-unsightly-turn-events.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/643-one-those-days.html Tue, 02 Sep 2008 05:44:29 GMT as much as I can try, this never works out the way I like it anymore... this last time seemed like a total joke.. no, really, a joke played on me for humor of some sort... a person whom many years ago I called a friend (I first thought this was a joke because this person who intro'd me is rather evil, and finds humor in rather retarded things) introduced me to this girl I knew back from highschool, I always thought she was really cute and wanted to get to know her but that never really happened. Well what I think is 4 years later, some dumb strike of luck, I get her number and we hang out a few times and all of a sudden its like I have a massive crush on her and my head is spinnin all over again...great, just what I need I think to myself, more to worry about! but for some reason I persue this as if I can get something out of it... like, oh god forbid, a good relationship with a great woman? ha, yeah, theres the optimisim shooting myself in the foot. well now 2 weeks has gone by and now I have no idea why I tried so hard. the only thing I found was her in the arms of another person.

since leaving for tucson last year, life seriously went down the ****hole for me.. the dorm room was depressing as hell as almost every night I either went out at night to get stoned off my ass, drunk, or stayed behind my computer playing video games till it was time for class the next ****ing day... god that made my life so depressing, I am honestly not surprized one bit that I failed my chemistry class... I had no interest in doing anything, if anything, I had thought about jumping out the window a few times because life was so bad.. tryin to get rid of those days makes me a happier person but damn did being away from my friend really suck, being back here, alot of them have been disconnected as we haven't talked all as much as I like...


hopefully tomorrow I wake up in a better mood, leaving behind the thoughts of this weekend as they have no use to me but to make sure they don't come again.

Hopefully some day I will find what I am looking for... ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/643-one-those-days.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/316-i-really-do-have-bad-luck.html Sun, 24 Feb 2008 07:16:08 GMT Okay well for 21 days Newegg did not accept my preferred account charge. It finally goes through and I come down with a 104*F fever the next day. Whatever I got me a new computer :D *gets more ibuprofen* Okay well for 21 days Newegg did not accept my preferred account charge. It finally goes through and I come down with a 104*F fever the next day.

Whatever I got me a new computer :D *gets more ibuprofen* ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/316-i-really-do-have-bad-luck.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/284-school-again.html Wed, 13 Feb 2008 08:40:59 GMT 2 essays, Lab report, Exam, 1 worksheet, 1 project proposal and a problem set. 3 different classes. 1 really sad man. I can see sleep walking out the door, laughing at me. Kids: dont procrastinate. 2 essays, Lab report, Exam, 1 worksheet, 1 project proposal and a problem set. 3 different classes. 1 really sad man.

I can see sleep walking out the door, laughing at me.

Kids: dont procrastinate. ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/284-school-again.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/257-not-again.html Tue, 05 Feb 2008 05:39:01 GMT My ridiculously bad luck strikes again. I bought the THRUSTMASTER wheel (funny name eh?) from ebay - whom the seller explained to me that the unit works with the PS2 as a racing wheel... well... IT DIDNT.. ugh, just like my last desktop... Failure. Now im stuck with selling it because the... My ridiculously bad luck strikes again.

I bought the THRUSTMASTER wheel (funny name eh?) from ebay - whom the seller explained to me that the unit works with the PS2 as a racing wheel... well... IT DIDNT.. ugh, just like my last desktop... Failure.

Now im stuck with selling it because the auction was an "all sails final"


**** me in the arse... and my roommate just laughs at me as always -,- ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/257-not-again.html http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/253-interesting-week.html Mon, 04 Feb 2008 02:49:00 GMT Well the Superbowl is playing, Ive stumbled upon a deal on HDD's (1.5TB for 70$), and I have some computer parts coming in the mail soon......


And my week is nothing but school... I have 2 meetings, 2 Lab reports due, 4 Articles (3 readings, 1 summary), and I need to finish this all before Thursday.. cuz my parents want me to visit home..

I hate school... :/

Well at least the first homework is only due Tuesday! ]]> XFreeRollerX http://www.overclock.net/blogs/xfreerollerx/253-interesting-week.html